Im very disconnected. Ive been. dissassociating alot. Im loosing alot of time. Im cutting atleast on a daily basis. Sometimes . I have no memmory of it. Im also very suicidal.I have a full plan. Ive even tried it out. I cant take anymore. Im a burden to everyone. I made a safety contract withy therapist. I dont lnow how long i can hold on.