I was never meant to make it this far. I intended to kill myself before I was at the 'applying to university' stage of life but I'm still here. I'm convinced I'll have been successful by this time next year so won't have to deal with university/moving away etc. All I keep thinking about is death. I OD'd again last week but am obviously still here. I keep going over and over the methods, wondering which is most likely to work. I just don't want to be here anymore. Advice, nice words?