I wake up feeling miserable. Like a sinking feeling in my stomach. I'm not working right now so I have a lot of free time which has been bad for me since I got nothing to do. I can't seem to find any interest in any hobbies or anything. I come on internet/forums and sometimes I play Xbox but that's about it. I'm pretty much just counting the clock till I can take some meds and go back to sleep. It's very hard being stuck in this place. It's like purgatory, closer to hell. I don't know how I'll make it another month. I'm just tired of life in general. Nothing exciting seems to happen anymore. I find our lives very boring. I don't think I want to live in mediocrity and that's the best I can hope for at this point. I have very little interest in material things and that seems to be all that anyone cares about which is sad. Anyone relate?