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Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by itmahanh, Oct 8, 2008.

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  1. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    Dont know what to do with all the shit in my head. It's so bad tonight and I really dont feel up to fighting it anymore. Part of me knows I need help but the bigger part knows it wont work. I cant even type it anymore. It's so bad. And everyone I usually lean on is in enough trouble themselves. Cant share mine too. Don't know what to do but know what I want to do. Right this second this moment I really dont know if I'll see the sun rise.
  2. ~Tosh~

    ~Tosh~ Forum Buddy

    Please dont say that huni, i know how you feel, people keep on at me sayin i need help, but like you, i know it wont work. Im usually around if you want someone to talk to :hug: maybe you should rest and see how you feel later on/tommorrow?? Please, i know i dont know you, but, talk to someone before your thoughts and actions take over you... Be strong, Take Care.. Im only a PM away

  3. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Please be strong Carla. I hope you're ok. :hug:
  4. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hello Itmahanh,
    I am sorry you are down, you usually have such good advice for others. I guess we all are still supseptable to having those pesky negative thoughts sneaking in there.
    I know what you mean about the people you usually lean on having there own problems right now. I have one individual who always gives me good advice, and I cherish the new friends I have made in the last couple of weeks.
    If you want to talk or just vent PM me I am off and on the forum pretty much all day. I hope you feel better!!~Joseph~
  5. black dove

    black dove Well-Known Member

    to be honest, i feel the same way right now. i hope with all my mind body heart and soul that you can hold on. please keep fighting. xox
  6. LenaLunacy

    LenaLunacy Well-Known Member

    i know how you feel. pm me if ever you need to talk, am often around :hug:
  7. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    I hope you find what it takes to hang on through this Carla. I can't say if help would make a difference, but it just might. Sometimes it depends on how open we are to it. If you think it can't then it won't. Our minds can be very powerful in this way. If you need another ear, remember I am here and more than willing to listen. Please take care and stay safe. :hug:
  8. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    I know what you mean about all the thoughts in your head. I have that also!! my mind just gets all jumbled up and I have reread evrything I am posting because the initial drafts don't make sence. I also will be talking to someone and my mind will go totally blank right in the middle of a conversation. That is very disturbing to me. I feel really self consous when it happens. Have they tried you on geodon? it is for those irrational thoughts. Some people can't take it. I also take cogentin to fight the side effects of the geodon. I still blank out but I am not so down on myself because of the thoughts. Ask your doc next time you see him and see what he/she thinks? Good Luck!~Joseph~
  9. Right U R Ken

    Right U R Ken Well-Known Member

    Has anyone heard from Carla since she made this post? She's usually here everyday but has not posted in two days which is not like her. And I sent her a private message two days ago that she has not responded to. I'm worried to say the least.
  10. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    I really hope Carla is ok. :unsure:
  11. Right U R Ken

    Right U R Ken Well-Known Member

    Does anyone have any offline contact info on her? Like a phone number? Someone needs to check on her if possible.
  12. aki

    aki Well-Known Member

    I really hope she's ok. I never talked to her but I always respected and was helped a lot by her caring and insightful posts.
  13. famous.last.words

    famous.last.words Forum Buddy

    god, i really hope everything is okay.
    Please be safe Carla :hug:
  14. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Please let us know if you are ok sweetie :hug: Thanks so much for the kind PM :hug:
  15. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    I'm not going to lie, I'm really bad. And I frankly could care less. I need to die. I have over 500 assorted meds, just waiting for the right opportunity to use them. So thank you but please move on.
  16. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Please don't do this Carla. We love you so much. I don't want to lose another SF friend to suicide. :sad:
  17. Right U R Ken

    Right U R Ken Well-Known Member

    I'm bumping this because we need to give Carla all the support we can.
  18. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Carla don't do it!! You have amongst the others helped me when I was down. Let me help you now!! You are a very kind and considerate person. I truely enjoy your posts. You have a very strong mind so use it to think about positive thoughts. What are some of your interests? You really need to be around people right now. Even if that means going into the hospital!! You need to occupy your mind with something you care about. And build positive thoughts from there. You can do it!!!! Please don't harm your self and also take those pills and flush them!! That is what I had to do my last episode, I flushed most of them, I only kept my geodon for the thoughts, my cogentin from side effects of geodon, nexium for acid reflux, and my cholesterall meds. Every other med I am on is in the sewer where they belong. It's alot easier to fight back if you no longer have the means!!!Take Care And Keep Posting there are alot of people worried about you!!!~Joseph~
  19. heya! i dont know you but i really do hope you are ok.. i cant relate to the crud you are feeling right now.. i hope you will be ok.. if you need to talk i will be here most of the time.. take care carla.. :)

  20. Acy

    Acy Mama Bear - TLC, Common Sense Staff Member Safety & Support

    I was just in touch with Carla. She has been pretty badly off lately. The bad times are really bad for her, so let's hope we can cheer her through the rough patches this week.

    -hugs- and love
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