Out of control.

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by whoaaxxsamm, Sep 23, 2010.

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  1. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    It's been a month now that I have completely isolated myself.
    The only contact I have is online.
    I'm scared.
    I don't know exactly why I'm doing this to myself.
    I think part of it is because I don't feel like I am in control of my actions or even my thoughts anymore.
    I'm extremely stressed out.
    I just want to run away from this world.
    I always ruin things, even if I isolate myself, I seem to ruin something.
    I need help, but my body and mind won't let me get it.
    I can't do this anymore.
    I don't want anyone to reply to this, I'm just writing to write.
    I don't want this to seem like a cry for attention.
    I don't want to seem like the girl that is always suicidal, but it's my horrible reality.
    I am that girl.
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  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Hi Sam...I am going to answer anyway...you deserve to be heard and to be helped...isolation is a part of depression and it is very difficult to handle...it gives us so much more time with our demons...please seek help and use the support of others here to find ways for you to do it...big hugs, J
  3. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    Just replying because Sadeyes is right, you deserve to be listened to. What's going on, why do you feel like you ruin everything? :hug:
  4. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    Hi Sam...I can understand why you isolate but I know it's not good for us....just makes our depression worse...
    are you having any proffessional help?
  5. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    Yes, I am having professional help, but I don't want it anymore.
    My body and mind won't allow me to accept help.
    I hate everyone and I hate that.

    I think I ruin things because I have hurt so many people.
    I have ruined so many things in the past, and will continue to do so.
    I can't control myself.

    I don't know what to do anymore.
    I honestly don't think I'm going to last much longer.
    I just want to run away.

    I can't even take care of myself.
    It's almost like I am back to the infant stage and need someone to take care of me.
    I feel like such a failure.
  6. Dave_N

    Dave_N Banned Member

    Don't give up Sam. Hang in there. :hug:
  7. Punk

    Punk Well-Known Member

    When I was in a similar situation I found out that getting out to do things I liked really doing was the main way forward. So I started going to gigs, football matches etc. just to get my confidence and self esteem up. It certainly helped me. What things do you like doing outside?
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