It's almost 4am, and I'm not tired at all. I just can't stop thinking about things. And they're all things that are in the past, things that can't change. The people I've lost aren't coming back. I can't undo the bad experiences or make the memories go away. All I can do is cope, and I'm not sure I have the emotional energy for that anymore. I know there are people who care about me, but I feel like I'm just burdening them because there's nothing they can do to help. They can't change things either. They'll listen, of course, but talking about things doesn't help anymore. I need something to change. I want to keep on going, but I literally just don't feel like I can. I just feel so drained.