another day wasted. why cant i get my good for nothing self out and about and actually do something. i'm starting to get real angry inside. real lonely. i don't want this computer and these 4 walls to be the total of my life. i need real people i need interaction. i need a purpose. i need my loved ones. i need self woth. i need therapy. i need money f*****k! what am i gonna do. i want to die but i wanna live. i'm confused about everything at the moment. where is the way out of this black cavernous pit. help help help. i'm loosing myself more each day. come back come back. my friends my fun my lover where did they all go. i don't wanna be here anymore i hate it hate it hayte it. i think i'm actually going a little insane!!!!!!!