No-one stops to ask me if I'm okay, like truly okay. If they did the answer would be no. I don't like to upload my feelings and emotions onto others but maybe virtually my fear of doing this will go away. Going through a tough patch where living each day miserable is getting tirying. I feel alone. I turn to alcohol because it allows me to forget and suffering a hangover strangely makes me feel good as I'm punishing my body and causing myself harm.