I keep listening to this song over and over again and I know it's triggering me in so many awful ways but i can't stop myself from listening because this song is so fitting for my life..it's fits exactly into whats going on. "Your parents say everything is your fault, but they don't know you like I know you, they don't know you at all. I'm so sick of when they say, it's just a phase, youll be okay, you're fine. but I know it's a lie" That line guts me everytime, it's killing me, slowly and painfully. I feel like I'll never stop crying, I feel like cutting so deep, I feel like screaming until my voice gives out. I feel so angry and so invisible in this house. I feel so used up and ignored. I feel empty and the only reason I'm alive is because of Josh, because of his love, because he means the world to me. It's like I'm just a doormat here, ignored, walked over, walked on, used up, tossed aside like yesterdays garbage. I don't want to feel anymore unless I'm in his arms feeling him touch me..I'm dying inside and there's nothing he can physically do atm to stop this feeling and I hate that!!!