I can't be a total failure to everyone anymore. I can't live with it. I can't do anything right, everyone hates me. I have no friends, and even my family is trying to pawn me off because they can't stand me. I can't deal with myself anymore. Everyone would be better off without me, and I should just go off myself. But I can't even do that because I don't have the guts. I'm a stupid, worthless, gutless pig and I just don't know what to do. I can't change. Ive tried. I just come back failing harder every time. I keep thinking I've hit rock bottom, then I just sink even lower. I can't take it anymore. And everyone's advice just makes me angry. It's like a part of me actually likes being totally miserable. How freaking crazy is that?