Liz, you can get through this. I know things have gone beyond what you feel you can handle, but I know you can do this. Take a deep breath. Tomorrow is a new day. Check into Le-ap and see what they can offer, if anything. They may have some other programs as well. Get through tonight first. Make sure you and the kids are safe. Take care hun. I am thinking of you and trying to come up with some options. I won't give up if you don't. :hug: