Just when I thought nothing else could go wrong...The dean of the college asks to meet with me only to let me know that I am not welcome back next semester as a result of my mental instability. I had been feeling extremely suicidal (with a plan) prior to this, now I truly don't have anything left to hold me here. My plan was supposed to be a couple weeks from now though. I swore to my therapist that I wouldn't hurt myself this weekend however I have everything I need ready to go and I want nothing more than to end it... On the one hand, I know I should be seeking help right now, but the thought of living through anymore of this is unbearable - I don't want to get better, I want it to stop. I'm not sure what kind of response I'm expecting. I'm just not sure of anything.