Just a vent, really. Last night, desperate for sleep and more than a little depressed, I took a greater than the recommended dose of ambien. Nowhere near a toxic level and not all at once - maybe over the course of 4 hours. By then it was clear the ambien was just making me hallucinate and grow even more depressed than before. After a few hours of that, I took a couple mg of risperdal. I don't even know why I did that! The hallucinations stopped about an hour or two later at which point violent nausea set in. A call to Poison Control told me there is nothing to be done but wait it out. Meanwhile, I'm still desperate for sleep and depressed but with the added bonus of not being able to hold anything down. God, I hate this illness. If I'd been thinking straight, I would realize that more isn't always better and that mixing and matching is frequently dangerous. But I was just in so much pain! I guess that's it, in a nutshell.