Well I guess the title says it all really. I really REALLY want to overdose. I'm currently embracing my manic state. But I'm not actually drinking this time. Which is a surprise. Now I guess you could say I've already OD'd tonight. On my <mod edit - method>. (Is that how you spell it? I don't know I can't remember). But well usually after a few, the urge goes away. Not tonight. I just want more? I wouldn't even call this a crisis. But I probably shouldn't do it. And most people would class it as a crisis. So I guess I should see it as one?