It appears overdoses dont work, 3rd times the charm is also false, infact it appears that after 7 overdoses are various legal drugs I am still alive, plus add another 5 minor atempts and I am dumbfolded as to how the hell I am not on the floor dead. None of my friends or family know about my little problems, and even though I should have gone to the emergency room, I never did. The first attempt, I just wanted to see the afterlife, well I did alright, and I saw nothing but darkness. Well that didnt stop me from trying again and again, and again. I guess I am insane, though I haven't gone to the doctor to prove that theory. I am utterly lost and I fear for my life, yet I wish to take it. It is only a matter of time before I try again, and this time I dont think I will walk away from it.