Discussion in 'After Effects' started by Sa Palomera, Apr 8, 2007.

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  1. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    First I got high off my face. The highest trip I ever had. Ended up feeling kinda numb and great and then I took a whole pack of pills. I don't understand why I woke up. I dont understand why I'm not dead. It was supposed to be enough.
    I am supposed to be dead right now. :cry:
  2. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    Hun, like i told you, what you took would of caused damage, thats about it.

    Sorry :sad:

    Am here if u wanna talk x
  3. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    Ester, please don't hate yourself so much. Talk to us, any of us when you are feeling this way. I am sorry you felt you had to resort to this.
  4. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    I;ve been in bed eversince and I still don't get it. I had it all worked out, I had everything covered. I had letter ready I erased all different kind of files off my computer, I had my room cleaned threw away old letters.
    I don't get it. I was supposed to die. All I fucking ask for is to be dead, that's ALL I fucking want.

    now I'm feeling ill, my heart seems to be beating incredibly fast half the time and my head is messed up. as well as my stomach.

    I didn't want this. I just want to be dead. I fucking crave for death.
    I'm such a loser. Killing others yeh tat's what I'm good at, but I can't even fucking kill myself. How pathetic am i.... :sad:

    Someone please kill me :cry: :cry: :cry:
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