I won't say what I took or how many but I overdosed today. From around 7:00 AM-12:30 PM. My stepdad called my doctor a little while ago (it's 9:00 PM) and left a message with some woman who yelled at him because he won't take me to the hospital. I feel horrible. I got sick, I'm cold and shaky, and my chest and stomach hurt really bad. Mentally I'm doing worse and if I still had the medication I'd be downing a lot more. I don't want to die but I can't take the pain. And now I'm embarrassed. My family are gossipers and they'll probably all find out. I just want someone to talk to. I talked to a friend over MSN but basically said i was better and feeling fine mentally/ physically. it seems like my family are avoiding me and i've only told online friends, because i don't want to know what my real-life friends would think. Probably say how horrible of a sinner i am for trying something like that. i feel like crap. i feel worse than that. i'm about to cry again. and if i did any damage to my stomach or liver than yay, gues swhat, even higher medical bills to come.