I haven't posted on here since I had made a plan to possibly kill myself, back in October. I had no idea how I would kill myself. But recently I've stumbled upon the idea of drinking about one or two containers of xxxxxx thus overdosing. It seems to be the best way because I have no access to xxxxx wouldn't hold me since I weigh about 200lbs, and I have lots of trouble swallowing pills. I don't know when I'll do this. If I go through with it, hopefully within the next few weeks. Just venting. Seeing if anybody has any input.