so much so that I did it over ten times :mellow: Every overdose I've taken has been based on an act of impulse. I'd take the tablets and then start worrying. It almost became a routine to take an overdose, go to the hospital and get treated. Which I guess is quite worrying. One overdose in particular was quite severe. I had to have charcoal (which is disgusting, especially through a tube). I ended up with severe hypotension, sedation and I was slurring my words. The strange thing is that I felt so relaxed, it almost felt nice.. I may have been dying, I don't know. Anyway, my last OD was November 05. That's a great improvement for me as I'd taken around 12 ODs between 04/05. I really hope I can continue doing so well. I don't want to end up in hospital (spending nine months as an inpatient was enough for one lifetime).