Why do I have to be one of those people that automatically assumes everything bad is aimed at me? Why do I walk down the street, hear people laughing or saying things like "oh my God look at that" and then giggling and assume they're laughing at me and that it's all aimed at me? Why is it when a friend or a family member defends themselves in an argument or a discussion I automatically assume they are attacking me or have some sort of personal vendetta to make me feel small? Why do I always become extremely defensive when someone disagrees with me or critiques me? How am I supposed to live like this. I just want to cry. How am I ever going to be around people again if this is how it's gonna be.