This is such an overreaction to what's happened but I'm so stressed out recently with so much... just making friends, having really, really good conversations, and they go. They're active online, but go away from me. What is it? Is it because I'm ugly? Is it because I'm not fun enough, that I'm boring? Am I too much? Am I annoying? I don't know what it is and I grasp onto things like friendship and people, especially right now when so much else is going on and it just feels bad. I've not brought up anything depressing, not even small things. I've not been terrible at conversation, I've sent really long messages discussing interesting things, which they've done in return. I feel like I try and I never get it right. Just once, I'd like to get it right. Just once, I'd like someone to care about me the way I care about them. But maybe that's too much. I just feel alone, and tired, and lost for any motivation or will to live.