All my life i've been overweight. As a kid, people laughed at me all the time, they never asked me to play with them.. kids never wanted a fat boy to play with them... parents looked at me weirdly and i could read in their eyes "that boy will become obese as the others, he should stop eating sweets".. i was always ashamed of eating in front of others and it happened when i had to eat in the toilet of the school, crying out of dignity.. i had no confidence.. i've never dated in my life, i never talked to a girl with flirt.. i talked very little at school as nobody wanted to be my friend.. I've tried all i could to be perfect, i've been on diet, i've starved .. i've tried to exercise, i've taken xenical, phentermine, alli. nothing works for me. everybody is against me, everything is against me in life.. even god or satan refuses me in heaven or hell.. i've tried to take my life... i've been in front of a car.. what a shame.. i've been to hospitals where i kept gaining weight. the driver is cursing me as he had to pay for reparation of his car.. i hate life. why am i so obese? why can't i be handsome? why? i know nothing in life. i've failed almost all my subjects, i'm not finding any jobs. who would want a failure like me? do i have any reason to live? i don't . i don't want to live. i want to leave everything, it never really mattered anyway.. .