Lately, I've been really stressed out and overwhelmed, sometimes about the stupidest things. My disability is really getting to me (I'm visually impaired), and is just making my life difficult at the moment. I know it's something that can be worked through, but I'm just... so completely anxious about everything. I've been depressed/anxious for about six years. I honestly am just tired of living. I want to die, to be completely truthful. I really do. But... I feel guilty for my family. I'd hate to have to make them deal with that, especially the cost of a funeral and all that. We're having financial difficulties, so I know that'd be hard for them, and those things are very expensive, you know? I don't know what else to say. Any thoughts? I don't have the money to go to a mental hospital, not again. And I'd feel ashamed... yet again for going. But at the same time, I don't know what else to do. Every day just feels deeper and deeper into this fog that is Depression.