overwhelmed vaguely existential ramble thing

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by BelovedDreamer, Sep 6, 2006.

  1. BelovedDreamer

    BelovedDreamer Well-Known Member

    I feel so utterly overwhelmed. Incapable of absorbing anymore change and chaos in my life. It's odd, such a disconnect. like I'm floating. I can't do this. I can't keep on keepin' on. it's just too much. I am unrooted and the connection is faulty, there's a problem in the line. Everytime I try to hold a normal conversation it takes so much concentration and effort. Like there is static on the line, a bad cell connection, but I'm standing right there, watching their mouth move but not understanding. I hate moving. I wake up and don't know where I am. All I want is to go home, wherever home is, I'm not really sure. I feel soul hungry. for solidity, stability, maturity, for some sort of closure. I feel, it seems, at loose ends. and I'm angry at the world, angry at myself, angry at people I loved and love, angry at life in general for leaving me here hanging like this.