Hello to all who care. Never thought I would wind up here. My first attempt was out of sadness, confusion, and anger. I was just by myself at home, thinking about how worthless my life was. I kept telling myself over and over "You're nothing" and "You'll never amount to anything." And I believed that. I still do. So, I snuck some sleeping pills from my dad's room with the intention of drifting off into an eternal slumber. I never wanted to able to feel or think again. Unfortunately, I only managed to down five of the pills (I have trouble swallowing any pill, large or small). My reward was a wave of nausea and dizziness, plus an incohorent mind. After that, I continued to take sleeping pills every now and then, to dull the pain. I tried choking myself but I always manage to let go at the wrong time.