Wednesday my oldest boy was in a very serious car accident. He rolled my truck 4 times from a gravel road way into a farmers field. The truck is totalled and the police say they cant believe he is still alive. Then Thursday I received some very disappointing and confusing information. So Friday I took the neighbors truck, dropped my youngest off at daycare and then sat on the train track waiting for the 11:45 to come. But at some point I started to think about all I have lost recently to my ex, almost losing my son and about what I thought I had lost from my heart and became so angry. So I pointed the truck to the east and just drove. By the time I stopped thinking about all the thoughts and started to think in the real world I was in the next province. I got home in the wee hours today. So I'm home but still so unsettled. I'm sorry to have caused any worry or upset to the members here and to my dear friends that I have made recently. And to Andy I'm truly sorry to have upset you and to have scared you. I think it's time I left here. But I find myself trying to decide if that is best or not. I know I need the support and care that everyone offers me here and that I am also able to give. But in the same breath I dont want to keep hurting and worrying people here. So for now, I just dont know what to do. But I thank you all for everything you have done for me. And I thank you all for being so concerned. Guess time will tell as to what I will have to decide.