couple of months ago my so called 'mate' sexually assulted me while he was drunk which I still blame myself for I should have seen it coming by the way he was acting. Because I blamed myself I didn't want to ruin is life by reporting him so I did nothing. But then he did it again to me whilst he was sober and started threatning me saying if I even told anyone he would make sure I never spoke again. I still never have told anyone ... but then day before yesterday night I was over all his threatning texts and being too scared to leave my house and because I was completly isolated as I couldn't hang out with my mates cause he would be there I decided to get the police involved. Biggest friken mistake of my life, I was walking to the police station and he drove past with 3 gang members from the gang he is in and they started walking with me. I was so scared I didn't know whether to keep heading towards to the police station so I could scream for help or to just walk somewhere else. I kept going to the police station and I think he firgured out where I was going, they draged me back to his car and 2 of them raped me and the other one kept punching me everytime I tried to get away. I am so worthless that I let people treat me like this. Yesterday afternoon I tried to OD but failed. I can't even get that fuken right. Shows I deserve what happens to me. I have no one ... my family are away for 3 weeks and are Angry at me for ringing them while they were away. I can't do anything right. I am way to scared to even attempt to report him or his gang member friends now as he is apart of this big gang who the police do shit all to stop them from doing what they like as they are just as scared of them. I'm sorry if this offended anyone. I just want it all to end.