I'm Not wanting to go outside. In a lot of pain, physical pain. Have been crying randomly. Feeling cold. Can't talk about feelings to anyone. Hate feeling like I should just "talk to a therapist" they don't always listen. I just want people to be like me, hate life- sit around and do nothing. I don't want to change. I don't want to socialize or be around people. I can't stand being around people-- I feel like people can read everything about me and hate me. I hate being negative but sometimes this is how I feel. Maybe someone could help, I doubt it though. I feel like dying would be a way out of this mess. I just want to die and start over. So anxious... I think that death might be a way for me to get out of this cycle. I feel hated by everyone and I don't know what I did. I feel like no matter what people are going to reject me so there's no point in trying to reach out anymore. sorry.