Woke up really early today. Right away i had crushing memories... Again. Within 5 minutes of opening my eyes, i wanted to end it. Few hours in, i still do. Every day i feel like i get more guilt, and more painful memories. I'm not sure where to turn. I just can't face the constant feelings of guilt, loss, and abandonment. Everyone in my life is breaking me down.. "You need to take ""something"" to fix your thoughts" "You're worthless" "You just don't want to be happy" "You're just lazy" Those are the nicer things i've heard. Guess they're right. Every day i feel like i'm just loosing my reasons. Maybe it is better to opt out. I don't know. I just can't loose this feeling.