Pain, Anger, and questions

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by Darkness N Light, Aug 13, 2007.

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  1. Darkness N Light

    Darkness N Light Staff Alumni


    Don't know what to do
    I turn to you
    You turn away from me
    What did I do
    What did I say
    How can you do me this way?
    I loved you with everything I had
    I loved you with everything in me
    Yet you decided death was better than me
    How could you do that
    Why did you do that
    How could you call that love?
    How could you say you loved me?
    The pain is going away
    The anger is getting worse
    I hate you for what you did to me
    I hate you for making me hate you
    I hate you for making me feel the way I do
    It's been 5 years why won't the pain go away
    Why do I still blame myself?
    Will I ever get over blaming myself?
    Will I ever blame someone else?
    Will I ever blame you since your the one who did it?
    I think that I will
    I think that I need too
    I can't live with blaming myself anymore!​
     
  2. RunningAway

    RunningAway Well-Known Member

    :hug: :cheekkiss:

    Hun. I know it is Hard. It was not your fault :hug: Remember I am here.
     
  3. amroth

    amroth Active Member

    Hey...don't blame yourself, it is never, ever your fault. A lot of emotion in this poem and I wish I could answer the question for you weather or not the pain will go away. In total honesty I don't think it will ever go away...just like the pain of my gf dieing will ever go away. We just need to find ways to live with it. Which I still haven't found yet but, I think the best way is to try to remember the good times as best you can. Because thinking of the bad...is only going to do just that.

    And yes...I know this is really hard and I don't know if I sound like a hypocrite or not since I haven't been doing well myself. But from what I've seen of you, you are such a STRONG person and you always do try to have that positive attitude toward others and life in general. I think you need to keep doing what you have been trying to do, and that's let that positive attitude overpower everything. And I know for a fact you can do this. You are a VERY STRONG person and please, NEVER forget that Crystal. =)
     
  4. see

    see Well-Known Member

    powerfull felt your anger :hug:
     
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