Pain or Death *triggering*

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  1. Deleted SKU

    Deleted SKU Well-Known Member

    The feel of heavy metal wrapped around my throat
    Binding chains that start to choke away the air
    Body bound so tightly that I can’t fight or flee it
    A freak show, they all stand around and stare
    Around me, they prepare their instruments of torture
    Knives and whips and sticks move quickly in their hands
    They cut and lash and strike at my defenceless body
    As they laugh and shout out their cruel reprimands
    They tell me of the evil of my worthless existence
    And how my deserved death would be just sweet relief
    Their voices drown out everything that’s in my mind
    They steal away my sanity and self belief
    How do I fight these people that have bound me?
    Those who enjoy the pain they inflict each day?
    Insubstantial demons existing only in my thoughts
    The tricks on my mind and body they enjoy to play
    A mental realm from which I cannot fight or flee
    They unbind me knowing I have but two more choices
    Gift me a dagger, and leave me to whichever fate
    I can escape to, away from their torturous voices
    To cut until my body saturates in tears of red
    A pain beyond any they can cause my heart or mind
    To drown out the damage that they have done this day
    Names carved in my flesh so clearly, red and underlined
    Or choose to make that single slash that ends it
    Embark towards the final sweet relief of death
    A permanent escape from self-inflicted torture
    I dream to stop my heart, to take my final breath
     
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    your poem tells of your hell very descriptive all i can say is whatever medication you are on they are not working okay time to try newer meds take the voices away.
    talk to your psych doctor and show him even these words
    tell him the torture inside of you
    get help okay there is away out.
    new meds that can conquer these voices withing
    time to change things up a bit to get relief for you
    don't stop fighting okay
    there is help tell your doctor okay tell him new meds needed now
     
  3. Deleted SKU

    Deleted SKU Well-Known Member

    Unfortunately my current situation means that going to a psychiatrist, or even a regular doctor, isn't really an option. I'm trying to change that, but its difficult to be motivated to trawl through the paperwork and documents needed.

    All i can do is hope i can hold out for now. Thankfully its not too often that bad, sometimes i can even go a couple of weeks without it getting to me that badly again. It makes it easier being able to put it into words, and knowing that other people have read it makes me feel a bit less isolated, so thank you for replying.
     
  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    keep putting the emotion the pain in words okay so others can reach out too others who relate can also see they are not alone i hope you do get some help for you You deserve peace
     
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