I take a lot of pain relief daily (for actual chronic pain) but I'm tempted to alter my dosis... I daily take 6 paracetamol, 3 Ibuprofren (600mg) and 1 Tramadol retard. (100mg)... that's prescribed by the doctor for my severe pain and it doesn't cover it... I recently went to get my pills refilled and the pharmacy was about to give me the old prescription of tramadol, they are only 50mg and they only last for 6 hours... it turned out it's an old unused prescription left in the system... and I walked away without them... But it's been spying on my mind... When I first started on those at least 18 months ago they felt really good. I would get a bit dizzy and feel light... Of course the effect dwindled down... I just found a poem I wrote 2 years ago one of those evenings... it seemed to be a good feeling I had. I know I shouldn't. My doses are already very high for someone 'my age' as my doctors keep saying. And I'm being sent to learn to deal and live with my chronic pains... and accept that it's for life... As a teenager I got addicted to paracetamol, I would take 9 in one go every day... My heart would race, I'd feel numb and I've even fainted. It wasn't suicide attempts as such (though I did do that quite frequently since I was 9(yes nine) years old). I did that for 6 months and apparently it's a miracle I'm still alive. I contacted a youth radio show on a popular channel to get help get out of it... they put me on the air and it was so weird the next day in school... so many people discussed the 'girl with the pills'... luckily no one seemed to realize it was me. The radio show got a lot of comments about the interview, one of them were from a doctor who was very, very concerned about my health and advised me to go to my doctor; saying my liver could be suffering greatly. I didn't go to the doctor, but it 'scared me straight'. I went 'cold turkey' after that... and for so many years I didn't take any pills, not even if I had migrane or bad period cramps. When my back and hip started hurting bad I went for several months before seeing the doctor, and he had to persuade me to take pain relief... And here I am... tempted... F*ck.