After trying so hard to move forward, I've found myself thinking about nothing but hurting myself. I always need someone to talk to, because I feel like that could help. But I have no one. I'm completely alone. Day and night all I want to do is self harm. At first it was just cutting. A few small scratches here and there. Then it turned into gashes. I even ended up in the hospital with stitches. But no one even reached out to help me then. So a few months after that, I started cutting again. Now I'm burning myself. Nothing is helping with the emotional pain anymore. I sit up crying all night. Not knowing what to do.. I'm going no where in life. I'm wasting away. I wish I could just be comfortably numb again.