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[ithurts]

I really, really don't want to kill myself but sometimes life is so painful that I don't think I can bear it. I have severe anxiety and it hurts so bad and then it makes me angry because I am so limited in what I can do.

I have a 20 page paper to write for school and it scares me so much that I want to throw up. Stupid, I know.

I have been hospitalized before for ocd, sad, gad, bipolar, who knows? The mood swings are horrid. I just started a new medication and am waiting for it to kick in. I am getting nervous though, because I haven't seen any difference and I don't think I can function much longer in the pain that I am in. I really don't want to go to a hospital again.

I just need some friends that understand. I found a support group in my area and am going to call to find out more about it tomorrow. I hope it works out.

Thanks for "listening."

 

[Ouroboros]

Hey, and :welcome: to the site!

Firstly, saying you realy dont want to kill urself is a good sign, it shows that you have reasons in your life to keep on living.
I often feel i cant bear things either but i try to think of the things i have which make me think that i want to keep living despite how unbearable some things can get sometimes.
I'd also like to point out that being scared about reports and deadlines and such is not stupid, i know so many people including myself who get scared about that and feel the same way. I wish i could advise you on how to help with that, but i'm still trying to work that out for myself. All i know is dont put added stress on urself by not giving urself enough time and if you have problems with the work itself never be afraid to ask for help.
I hope the support group works out for you and know also that you can make friends here too, i have found many people here willing to listen and they are very understanding.

x

 

[cygnedepose]

I'm not an expert but I have lot of stress, too. When I feel overwhelmed I listen to music and such. Do you have an outlet to your stress? If not you may want to find one. It can be drawing, writing, going shopping, or listening to music like me. It will take your mind off of what's worrying you- and usually what we're anxious over isn't reall that bad to begin with. Once again I'm not an expert, but that's my opinion. Hopefully, that helped.

 

[ithurts]

Thanks for your support. I am starting to feel better. I think it is the meds (hopefully it is that and not a mood swing).

Yes, I need to invest in some CD's to destress me. I am a poor college student now, though.

 

[NoMotiv]

Yes, definately get music. You can also download it somewhere if you cant afford CD's, but music is a great way to deal with your emotions and feelings, and it can really help you when youre feeling down.

 

[iQuit]

You should listen to Excuses by Alanis Morissette ithurts