I really, really don't want to kill myself but sometimes life is so painful that I don't think I can bear it. I have severe anxiety and it hurts so bad and then it makes me angry because I am so limited in what I can do. I have a 20 page paper to write for school and it scares me so much that I want to throw up. Stupid, I know. I have been hospitalized before for ocd, sad, gad, bipolar, who knows? The mood swings are horrid. I just started a new medication and am waiting for it to kick in. I am getting nervous though, because I haven't seen any difference and I don't think I can function much longer in the pain that I am in. I really don't want to go to a hospital again. I just need some friends that understand. I found a support group in my area and am going to call to find out more about it tomorrow. I hope it works out. Thanks for "listening."