I tried things before. i stolen a scalpel and cut my arm, ended up in the emergency room and after 5 hours wait - here is Canada for you - ended up with an ugly scar. I have no resources, emotional, financial left and I have no hope left either, I; 37 unmarried, no kids, no friends, hate my job, and now my looks too. Have a Body Dismorphic thing. i do not take drugs, I do not want live on drugsm it's no life. Have Xanaxa and Zopiclone. How much do I need to do the job properly. Please do not give me this lame things about better day and astuff. I know what I'm doing.