So on the 2nd i attempted to kill myself. i just didn't want to be alive anymore. and i still don't but i'm so scared to die. i'm scared to live and to die... <mod edit-gentlelady-methods>. apparently my liver almost shut down or something like that. i'm a little fuzzy on that subject. i was really out of it that night. why did i do it? like i said. i just didn't want to be alive anymore.