Hi guys I'm 19, male, have Asperger's syndrome, and for about half a year now, I keep getting into screaming/doorslamming matches with my parents, especially my mom. It all started out because my room is major league messy, and I'm apparently "lazy as fuck" (her words, not mine), even though I've got a job in the meantime and pay 1/4 of my income to my parents (for the privilege of getting yelled at day-in day-out I guess). I keep telling my mom to just stop bugging me about my room and I'll eventually do it, but she doesn't, and so I cant do it either, because then she'd have won and thin if she only yells at me long enough and loud enough, I'll do whatever she wants (that train of thought probably tells volumes about me). Recently, the rate at which they mention contemplating to kick me out has been increasing, so I'm a little worried. I barely have any money on the bank, which is probably my own fault because I keep spending it as fast as I get it, and I don't think I'd make it even a month on my own. So about a week ago, I've decided that if they'll eventually kick me out, I'll kill myself right on their front porch by deliberately OD'ing, with a note next to me saying "It's your fault and you know it!", just to teach them a lesson. Obviously I don't want either of that to happen, so I thought about telling them my plans, but then they'd just have me institutionalized, which means I'll be out of the house, so they'd have won. Worst of all is, I see the problem, which is both me and my parents being stubborn, but I'm too damn stubborn to do anything about it, because then I'd lose, which seems even less preferable than offing myself and utterly destroying them in the process. So I'm kinda trapped between a rock and a crazy place, and I was hoping you might help me out here. peace out P.S.: I haven't ever used hard drugs in my life (just alcohol, nicotine and cannabis), I just chose OD'ing because I don't want to be anywhere near conscious when I die.