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Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by draculim, Oct 15, 2011.

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  1. draculim

    draculim Member

    I'm always angry when I think of my parents. They are not bad people at all. It's the fact they don't know how much pain they leave me in that pisses me off.

    They beg me to live for them while they don't know that if it's not for them, I'd be long gone.

    They blame the oustide world that made me into this fucked up dude while they don't know that it's actually them who did it.

    Mom always thinks she does a good job raising me. For the sake of heaven, and as an advocate of Robert Bly's, I really want to scream at her for thinking like that. Gender is NOT biological only. Why the f*** did she she have to make me become anti-man in the past so that I could fill the void my Dad left behind when he was going away for work? Now I hate myself for being a man every waking minute. The more unaware she is of the problem, the angrier I am.

    And dad, why the hell do you act like a saint when I know you're not? Why do you think that you understand me while you don't even begin to have a clue? What does "normal" even mean? And why do you think I am, ever, normal? And you want

    I'm constantly thinking about killing them and then committing suicide.
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    If you are having these thoughts then you need to get help go to hospital and talk to crisis team there They are parents who can only try to do t heir best and if it is not working for you maybe time to look at getting your own space. Get out of the toxic environment Seriously go talk to someone and get some help to get rid of these thoughts
  3. jimk

    jimk Staff Alumni

    echo to you what Total Eclipse just said here.. no killing parents or yourself.. it this becomes something you really want to do, either call 911 or get yourself to a hospital emergency room posthaste..

    if parents do not have a clue about you and what you need then ditto again.. start making serious plans to live somewhere else.. you take care. Jim
  4. draculim

    draculim Member

    Thanks... The urge is chronic. I have calmed down now, but I'm not sure when it would resurface again...
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