Past abuse. *trigger*

Discussion in 'Rape and Abuse' started by ~CazzaAngel~, Feb 24, 2008.

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  1. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    I'm not sure what to say or do anymore.. lately the flashbacks and memories are haunting me, they won't stop, it even haunts me in my sleep. I want it to all go away, and it's been years since it has last happened, I end up hurting myself, punishing myself, and the rapes and sexual abuse were not only by one abusers I've had a handful of them, in childhood and adult life as well. the pas couple days the one specific memory comes back, the first time I was sexually abused, I was about 7 years old, and I wrote a poem about it yesterday. I feel so alone. I want it to stop.

    A sad child sits alone in her room,
    He walks in sits down by her he looks
    her right in the eye with piercing eyes
    and tells her she is such a special little girl,
    The man tells her though abandoned and
    unwanted that she is special - he proclaims
    he will prove to her how special she is - the man
    Tells her she must do as he says - he forces himself
    on her - as he does that he tells her how very lucky
    she is to have such a purpose in life - the child cries
    out begging 'please stop, I'm sorry if I was bad',
    He whispers in her ear 'this has just begun girl',
    The piercing eyes and wicked voice remains with
    her - a 7 year old child always within.
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  2. ophelia28

    ophelia28 Well-Known Member

    oh hun i'm so sorry u feel so bad u r strong and u will get through this love u loads and lots of hugs. i'm here if u want to talk. thinking of you.
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