Its seems like recently I've passed the point from where I've been contemplating killing myself or just wanting to die to where its just going to happen.
A few days ago I was in the position where if I'd had a suitable method I wouldn't be here now.
I've now pencilled in a date in my diary by which time I can acquire means. This seems the only thing thats making me a bit happier, in fact I'm not even sure why I'm writing this down.
I have tried so many things to help and talking with so many people to help myself.
My ability to deal with close relationships is broken, I can't stop myself from wanting to be with someone and all the ups and downs that come with it. But when I love or even strongly attracted to someone I go crazy, I can't even tell clearly how I feel for them because of the way I am. Whilst the current trigger is my ex being happy and pregnant with someone else It seems this is
just an endless cycle grrrr .
Don't know if I want advice support or just to relate really....
A few days ago I was in the position where if I'd had a suitable method I wouldn't be here now.
I've now pencilled in a date in my diary by which time I can acquire means. This seems the only thing thats making me a bit happier, in fact I'm not even sure why I'm writing this down.
I have tried so many things to help and talking with so many people to help myself.
My ability to deal with close relationships is broken, I can't stop myself from wanting to be with someone and all the ups and downs that come with it. But when I love or even strongly attracted to someone I go crazy, I can't even tell clearly how I feel for them because of the way I am. Whilst the current trigger is my ex being happy and pregnant with someone else It seems this is
just an endless cycle grrrr .
Don't know if I want advice support or just to relate really....