I wish I could kill myself, but I don't have the strength. I can't bring myself to do it. It makes me hate myself so much more. All I can think about is how fucking hopeless I am. I disgust myself. I wish someone would kill me. I wish someone would either hate me enough to kill me, or love me enough to reach out--REALLY reach out--and try to help. But nobody feels anything for me. They don't care if I live or die. A lot of them would probably be relieved if I died. I hurt everyone around me because I want their help and affection so badly that I force them into talking to me and pretending to care about me, when they should be doing homework or talking to their real friends. I'm pathetic. Someone, please, help me kill myself. I can't ask for compassion any more--what I receive is always so fake. Please help me die.