So I think I should go to a tattoo parlor and get a giant letter "L" tattooed onto my forehead. I am such a pathetic excuse of a person. Or maybe instead of an "L" for looser, maybe an "FU" for my f'd up life I have lived. So now, not only do I not have my drums anymore, I am pretty much flat ass broke. The only thing I got going for me is an affiliate website for ecigs. My current paycheck's net pay was under 100.00 I know my money wont always be that way. So I have been trying in vain to find some financing to get a new set of drums but nobody will touch me. Add to that, I have screwed up my health. My wife and I still havent really connected again. I hate me. PASSIONATELY HATE ME!!! I should condemn myself to hell. Which is why I want to go hide away somewhere. Society would be better off without me.