So I have had that info through from Personality Disorder Network and it has not helped at all really. It has made me wanna go less. I will speak to the Social Worker when I go. I really don't want to go to a group thing. I am not comfortable talking to one person about my feelings never mind a group so really don't think it would work for me. I don't particulary like to talk to counsellor. It is easier for me to write things down. I can't actually so to anyone I want to kill myself. I can't talk to people about how I feel. I always have to keep apologising to my BF as he gets the brunt of my moods. He said he has noticed that I have been quite bad recently with my moods and depression. Being as though I haven't taken my meds since I last attemped, as I have run out and at the moment can't afford the prescription could possibly mean that they have some effect, however, I haven't noticed any difference at all. Maybe it is just PMT that is causing my mood swings at the moment. Apparantly I get it quite bad so maybe that is why he thinks I am worse. I don't notice it but he can tell exactly where I am in my cycle based on my moods...lol. I think that is quite funny really. So this week I have a couple of goals... 1) FIll in application forms for 2 different jobs that I want. 2) Try to find a new flat mate 3) Not to spend loads of money. On a positive note - my holiday for the year is less than 2 weeks away - I am only staying in UK and only going for the weekend but it is my holiday as everyone else is pissing off without me and I have not even been asked. Also it is my birthday in a just over a week, which means I shall be getting presents and everyone will be nice to me... I am so materialistic aren't I? lol!!!!