It seems no one can help me. I entered the chat room in one last stand to try and get some one to talk to, and got whisked away in a hurry. It is too late now. Thank you BrianG for talking to me the other night, you push through and hopefully will never have to visit this website again. I wish the best of luck for any one who feels what i am feeling, and hope you can get through it. One last piece of advice. If you come to this website to seek help, or a distraction, I strongly advise you leave now. It is a great place to go to vent, but in the end you will read others stories, and experiences, and realize the world is a terrible, terrible place. Every one you are getting advice off is just as depressed as you are. Thank you for taking the time to read this. I have some letters to write.