Truth is i've tried to be strong for all those on the site, you deserve it. Truth is I'm not so good, I feel this is the time. Tomorrow my mom goes on holiday for a week, I will be here by myself left to do anything I want to. Will she be shocked when she comes back? I am sorry all those people that tried, I don't want you to feel as though it was a waste of time. Your are good people and you deserve too see the light at the end of the tunnel.