Peaceful, but just a little squeaky...

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by TearsDropBloodTrickles, Sep 27, 2006.

  1. TearsDropBloodTrickles

    TearsDropBloodTrickles Well-Known Member

    'I still love you' by Amanda Perez, thats the song im listening to. And its true i still love you, I love my mother, the woman i no longer talk to, I love Jack, the man who is no longer alive, Canan, the bestfriend i betrayed and Kuba, the man i never had. Why is love the only form of acceptable self-harm. I hate it and i desire it. I miss it but I've never had it. I dream of it and yet i know it does not exist. Maybe i should be listening to another of Amanda Perez's songs, 'Love Is Pain.'

    So once again im slipping into my 'mode' were i deny to myself that anythings wrong, were i deny that im unhappy. I'm pretending to smile, to laugh, my hugs hold artificial warm and my kisses are out of politeness. Once again im seeking comfort online, from internet admirers, men that will tell me what i want to hear. I'll play their game so i can hear the words i long for. Its Pathetic. But in denial i pretend its not, it means nothing to me, im just passing time. In this way, ive passed so much time.

    So now i listen to Christina Aguilera 'Understand' and i tell you i dont understand. Any of it. Why im alive. Why i feel this way. Why I cannot feel like you. Why i cannot be the way you want me. Why? Why? Why? Why? You know thats another one of my problems, i think way too much, which leads me to ask way too many questions.

    So now i've moved onto 'You Give Me Something' James Morrison. And this song makes me feel empty. I want someone to have my cure, but everyone keeps telling me there is no cure. That nobody has the answer, that its somewhere in me. Sigh.

    Why cant life be more like a swing ? Peaceful, but just a little squeaky.
  2. me_

    me_ Guest

    That's an interesting way to see love. I definitely see some truth in it. :smile:

    I hope this rant helped a bit. :hug:
    I wish you all the best, I wish you to hear "Shiny Happy People" by R.E.M some day and thing "Wow, this song is about me". :smile:
  3. babycheeses

    babycheeses Active Member

    I spose swings get rusty after a while. The swings that we used to have down the road were replaced with new plastic safe ones, which are way less fun. Make of that what you will cause I'm not sure what my point is...

    Different songs offer different ideas. I really like a song by this aussie artist called Inga Liljestrom. The song's called "Glow" and the lyrics for the chorus are:
    "As I fall in the dark
    Things so beautiful
    Only glow at night
    For only you I will fall
    Things so beautiful
    Only glow at night"

    Stick that in your melodic mix and listen to it;)
  4. Entropy

    Entropy Well-Known Member

    Listen to Funker Vogt, or Juno Reactor, or Front 242 its less about love and more about other things.
  5. itachi

    itachi Well-Known Member

    Running by Evermore
    One of the most enspiring song ive ever heard
  6. TearsDropBloodTrickles

    TearsDropBloodTrickles Well-Known Member