Sorry, i just need ask i'm sorry if this offends, upsets anyone. I've been abused all my life, but the person I find more diffciult to accept is the abuse that happened outside of the family, I think because I believe that he does love me. when I was 13, my body changed and so did he. he was never violent until the day I was 13 and had my monthly...my counsellor believes it was because he was intrested in children and there was evidence to prove i was no longer a child, if that's the case why didn't it stop why did it continue for another 2 years. i couldn't go toilet without him following me and then masturbating over my back as i washed my hands, he's hand going down my pants. he raped me and that hurts. it hurts that the person i thought loved me possibly didn't.