I just got another rejection from a clinic Why do i even try... First i was too unstable for threatment now they say a day threatment is better but not with them! I dont know what too do anymore. Maybe i should just wait for another breakdown and maybe i finally will succesfully kill myself. The health system is one fucked up thing for people in need. You need em they leave you standing in the cold. You dont need them and there all over you. Im sad broken and disapointed atm. Even when my mind said they didnt wanna take me in. I still had some hope that they would and they did care what can happen. But once again my negative thought got the right answer as always... Screw life and all its disapointments!