I read the thread about it and some of it made sense but most of it doesn't seem to be me. Or does it? I am obsessed with how I look, though I can go out in public with no makeup and not care, but my personality totally changes and my self-esteem is at it's lowest point. I will not look at people in the eye, for example. I feel totally ugly when I have a pimple or a cold sore. I have been known to skip school or classes because of it. And the thing about seeming very shallow is me. I have been known to like guys who other girls find unattractive but yet I think what a person looks like on the outside matters ALOT in a relationship. I also seem to be a gold-digger and money is VERY important to me. Another thing that seems specific to me and that nobody I have ever met seems to be able to relate to is my very high standards in men. It is so bad that I have gone my whole life without a boyfriend because I am to obsessed with a CELEBRITY to care about any guys that are actually around me. I won't list all the celebrities I have majorly crushed on but some you could guess like Orlando Bloom and Matt Damon. Currently I have fallen for a local celebrity. He is an NHL hockey player in the city that I live in. I have not met him, nor will I most likely, but I feel so strongly towards him it is madening*sp?*. Are these symptoms of BPD and can this even be explained?