HY Im a 17. year old form Europe. I would like to begin with my life story. I was always an odd person, like too old for my age, so i never could mix with people my age, now it is getting worse, i cant stand for my self, i am not a strong person, so everyone just walks over me.I got two perfect companise,,,one with solar energy , other in robotic sector, so it is no way that i can fail, but as i read this forum money isnt everything, but this is the only thing that is keeping me alive. In my so called family the only pesron that could understand me is dead, one week ago i told my mother that she is dead for me. So i dont wait for help from my family,,, i just want to know a person who went through something as similar as i am going. I guess i am a very dangerous person, i am very afraid that one day i will snap, if this happens then some 1000 people will be dead, if i go down i wount go alone.